My bf and I got back! :) 

But I don't feel the same anymore. Actually I realised I'm just too used to him . That's all. 

Things I never said about my ex

It's a Sunday morning... 

Mr.A is overseas with his friends, my ex should be sleeping cause he went out the whole night last night and only came back in the morning. Last night, I was working on my computer at home till 3am too.  And I woke up early this morning wanting to finish up my work.... But decided to blog. 

I'm all alone at home. 

Thinking about everything. Starting to wonder what went wrong.... 

Actually , I am faithful to my bf for the first few years. But realized that once the honeymoon period is gone, he was no longer interested in me as a gf. He will no longer try to please me or make any effort in this relationship.

He will prefer going out with his friends than with me. He will prefer to spend all his money when outside with them and then when it comes to me, we go on Dutch when paying or we rarely go out anymore

That's when I started looking for flings gradually even when we are together. Yes I know I am being really unfaithful and unfair towards him. I love him, but I need someone to show me love and affection too. 

Maybe I should put down everything... 

In the bus

Boring shot in the bus. Here's a picture of my fat legs. Hahaha cause I used to dance ballet many years ago and all the muscles have turned into fats. 

Anyways since this is a rendezvous blog; I think I shall blog about something related ( in case my readers run away and never read this space anymore, in their minds thinking why this blogger so boring??!) haha. Not much actions will be available in this coming period, cause I'm so single . (Still with A ) but no strings attached . 

Anyways being in the bus reminds me of so much memories. 

One of them is the usual groping . Do you all have similar experiences like me? 

My ex bf and I will hop on the bus home together and I will accidentally brush my boobs over his elbow or arms and get him really excited . And his fingers will be out and touching part of my boobs, and when there's lesser people in te public bus, he will grope my whole asset and my hands over his fully erected groin... And then he will whisper into my ears: " can't wait to get home " with a silly grin plastered across his face. ;) 

Just had this major quarrel with A . He checks me phone again!!! And read all my messages which made him angry cause I still text my ex bf now and then. And he's very unhappy about it. Actually he's beginning to make me stress up.

Now me and ex bf are really just friends.... :( it's really complicated cause he wants me back but only with some conditions set by him. So I rejected the chance but at the same time kinda saddens me a lot. :( 

So I'm not ready to venture into another fling or relationship yet. 

But me and A had make up sex for three times a day. He said he's always horny whenever he sees me. 

New year 2014

It's a bad start for this year. 

At least for me. 

Sometimes I realised some friends are really pretentious . And it irks me a lot cause I have to be pretentious to them too. Some will backstab people behind and act innocent on the front. I have to admit that honestly I'm an easily affected person. I can sense it immediately when people are fake around me. 

So much rants for the start of the year . 

But the only best thing is : 

Ex bf asked me back for a patch. 

But Mr.A is really possessive now and I can't really decide yet. But he keeps checking my phone everytime I leave my phone alone.

Hope I will keep the stories coming up soon. I'm just too unwell recently. :(